cinnamon nutmeg

Sacramento Railyards

2010-08-24T22:53:00.000-07:00

self-portrait

2010-05-03T18:13:00.000-07:00

honestly, this is what i see in the mirror. "alienesque"--pshhh.

drawn in charcoal two summers ago

2010-04-27T19:40:00.000-07:00

A true friend is one soul in two bodies.

--Aristotle

I was thinking the same thing!

2010-02-07T02:21:00.000-08:00

Chris Brown was criticized for his reading off a cue card, but I was more offended by something else...

His ugly shirt.

Alphacat is freaaaking good at impressions. His Drake spoof is the best (I ever had).

cool black

2010-01-11T22:32:00.000-08:00

ohh yah give it to me

2009-12-07T22:33:00.001-08:00

A woman's writing is always feminine; it cannot help
being feminine; at its best it is most feminine; the
only difficulty lies in defining what we mean by
feminine.

Virginia Woolf

2009-10-30T05:33:00.001-07:00

“When you uproot a plant from its original habitat and replant it somewhere foreign, it is rare that no fracture occurs. Some die right away; others suffer slowly with illness; yet others persevere but remain sad and wilted their entire lives”

Prized Writing Contest Flier

2009-10-26T23:24:00.001-07:00

lobster hands!

2009-10-07T00:05:00.000-07:00

from alexander mcqueen

Sacramento Fashion Week 2009 Program Booklet

2009-09-16T12:48:00.000-07:00

I'm done betccch

WORK PROCESS
First I was told it had to be no more than 8 pages. Then my boss gave me a shitload of bios and ads that couldn't fit within 8 pages, so I pushed it to 10. Then at the last minute my boss sends me more bios and ads that have to be used, so it becomes 12 (he wanted 14, oh hell no). This was stressful as shit (but really fun)!
So I got to use my InDesign skills and all I could remember about Photoshop (thank goodness for magnetic lasso, color replacement and filter tools that do everything for you--result: yellow eiffel tower). I also had to copyedit and do most of the graphics.
I am so sure that it's not over and I'm going to be getting an email from my boss telling me to add something/change something/etc.

WORK 0 dollars
EXPERIENCE priceless?

SACRAMENTO FASHION WEEK WILL HOST CHARITY CLOTHING DRIVE ON FINAL DAY OF EVENT

2009-09-14T10:58:00.000-07:00

Sacramento, CA - September 11, 2009 – The final day of Sacramento Fashion Week will not only consist of catwalks, but will host a clothing drive to benefit those in need in the Sacramento region on September 19th, 2009.

Sacramento Fashion Week is a high fashion event produced by Magnum Opus Enterprises and includes music, entertainment, and upcoming designers from Northern California. DAY THREE will feature Ivan Joel, Linzel, Ada Handbags, Caliber.59, Tiana Vega, and Collection by RJ.

At Sacramento Fashion Week’s Clothing Drive, we encourage everyone to donate new and/or gently used clothing to benefit those in need in the Sacramento region. Simply drop off your donations in a plastic or disposable bag at the collection box. The first 50 donors of five or more pieces will receive a complimentary Shiseido facial gift certificate as well as $5 off of admission for the final show.

The Miss Asia Sacramento Pageant will sort out and distribute accordingly the donations to respective citywide consignment locations where proceeds help the needy and homeless in the Sacramento County. All drop-off receptacles (large cardboard boxes with Sacramento Fashion Week signage) will be provided.

DAY THREE will be held on Saturday, September 19th starting from 12 p.m. for VIP and 12:30 p.m for general admission, to 3:30 p.m. at the address 1207 Front Street, Old Town Sacramento. General admission is $15, VIP is $25.

FOR MORE INFORMATION PLEASE CONTACT:
Magnum Opus Enterprises
100 Enterprise Court
Galt, CA 95632
PH: 206.337.4224
E-mail: info@sacramentofashionweek.com
Website: www.sacramentofashionweek.com

Victor Louis "One Night in Paris" Launch Party

2009-09-10T02:15:00.000-07:00

“ILL FAM” AND CLUB FUGU LOUNGE WILL HOST A PROMOTIONAL LAUNCH PARTY FOR SACRAMENTO FASHION WEEK’S VICTOR LOUIS

2009-09-08T11:46:00.000-07:00

Sacramento, CA – September 4, 2009 – ILL FAM and Club Fugu Lounge will be hosting a special promotion party on September 11, 2009 for Victor Louis’ charity fashion show “One Night in Paris”, which will be showcased at DAY ONE of Sacramento Fashion Week.

Victor Louis’ collection “Amour de la Robe” is one of the anticipated couture lines being shown on DAY ONE of Sacramento Fashion Week. Sacramento Fashion Week is a high fashion event produced by Magnum Opus Enterprises and includes music, entertainment, and upcoming designers from Northern California. It will run from September 17th to September 19th.

Come and join the designer before Fashion Week for an evening packed with fashion, music, and fun! Victor Louis’ promotion party will include sneak previews from the designer collections debuting during Sacramento Fashion Week as well as a special guest DJ.

Victor Louis’ promotion party will be held on Friday, September 11 from 9 p.m. to 1 a.m. at Club Fugu Lounge at the address 2071 Natomas Crossing Drive in Sacramento. For ages 21 and over only. There will be free cover charge until 11 p.m. for those on the guest list. To get onto the guest list, please e-mail Janelle at janellelei@aol.com.

FOR MORE INFORMATION PLEASE CONTACT:
Magnum Opus Enterprises
100 Enterprise Court
Galt, CA 95632
PH: 206.337.4224
E-mail: info@sacramentofashionweek.com
Website: www.sacramentofashionweek.com

"You're American?"

2009-09-07T22:12:00.000-07:00

I finally had my Drapers interview put onto the news section of the website! If you check out www.drapersonline.com/news you'll see it (at the end of the page. heeh) or just go directly here.

The founder of lingerie brands Mimi Holliday and Damaris tells Amethyst Wang what inspires her lingerie designs.

More details of this interview, and how things were in London:

TIME MANAGEMENT
This interview was done way in advance of printing. Drapers isn't even a monthly magazine, it's a weekly print! I did this assignment way back in June, and it's out in the September week 1 issue. Not sure why it's been sitting on the backburner for so long, but I was never told when it was going to be printed so I had a nice surprise when my google alert came up today.
Working in London, things seem very relaxed compared to the US. Stories and articles are written in advance, so there's no rushing to get a story completed. It's not like there's no work getting done, but there's definitely a different mood in the workplace. Basically Londoners have a calm demeanor at work, whereas in the states they're all over the place after putting assignments off in the procrastination pile.

QUOTING
London seems pretty lax on quoting. In the US, quoting has to be the most important thing you do, because if you misquote your ass is getting fired. But (at Drapers at least) they don't seem to care about getting the exact quote, just as long as you have the main idea. When I'd be getting quotes for the polls pages, the interviewees didn't seem to care much either. They'd say things like "Just, you know, write something like that" or "Make me sound a little smarter than that". You can even fill in the blanks if you didn't write down the full quote. Although this is probably different wherever you work.

INTERVIEWS
Most of the interviews I did were over the phone. I call them up, have some small talk ("why are you American?" "the weather is shit"), type out everything I hear as quickly as I can on my computer (because misquoting scares me), "thank you so much for your time", and that's it. It's the easiest interview EVER and I love it.
This seems to be how most interviews go, so the fact that I met with Damaris and her publicist in person is rare. We met up at the Boundary in Shoreditch. I took a cab because I had never been there. She arrived there first, which I didn't want to happen. I'd rather I be the one to arrive first. Anyways we were on the rooftop, she ordered wine, and basically it's perfect except that because I sent her the questions beforehand, she had typed and printed out all of her answers. So I didn't know what to do with all of the extra time and felt I had to ask extra questions which I wasn't prepared to ask. So I was nervous and bumbling. At one point the publicist asked me "Are you alright?".
Learning experience ya'll.

THE WEATHER
Not really a work related thing, just a London thing. People in London love one thing--that is the weather. Or they hate the weather. It's a love hate relationship. But one thing is for sure: THEY LOVE TALKING ABOUT IT. "The weather is so nice today, I can finally wear my skirts" "Fuck, the rain" "The sun is out so I'm getting more customers" "etc etc etc weather!" The first thing I'd hear every morning at work is some comment on the weather, and everyone would put their two cents. How is there so much to say about the weather? Plus a lot of people I interviewed would tell me that their business is based on the weather. If it was a good, sunny day, then the business was great. If it's rainy, then blame the lack of customers on the bad weather.

These are some of the things I definitely remember about working in London :) Time to get back to work and stop procrastinating.

"The Quick and Easy Guide to Writing a Love Song"

2009-08-14T18:12:00.000-07:00

I read this essay when doing work for Prized Writing. It's by UCD student Travis J. Perkins in the 2004-05 issue.

Be in love. Be so much in love that you forget your name when she enters your field of view. When she speaks to you, fumble with your things and say “uh, um” or “mmm hmm” every third word. Despite your abounding vocabulary, be inarticulate, oafish, and dumb whenever you make contact with her. When she leaves, let the poetic things you “should have said” spread like wildfire in your mind. Let the passionate prose overflow your consciousness and stain your face red with embarrassment. Feel the shame and awkwardness of missing your last chance. Write poetry about these experiences late at night when you can’t sleep. Write them in a green sketchbook that your aunt gave you two Christmases ago.

Think of U2 lyrics when you see her. Repeat Bono’s words And you don’t know my name when she pays attention to some other guy. Start to invent new lyrics to the melody: and you and I are the same, and you have a beautiful mane. Write these down on a special page of your sketchbook, saving them for the song you are planning to write. Make a list of songs that banish every thought from your mind and leave only her face: “I Won’t Forget You, Baby” and “Every Rose” by Poison. “Nothing Compares” by Sinead O’Conner. “Let Me Touch You for a While” by Alison Krauss. Burn these love songs onto a CD and label it Hardcore Mix. Tell your friends that it is scratched when they see it in your car and want to spin it in your stereo.

Feel your confidence crumble when she enters your social circle. Before you see her, discuss Kant’s Categorical Imperative with your philosophy cronies. Don’t let them know about the poetry of Pablo Neruda tucked in between the pages of your Ethics textbook. Begin to win over their minds with your criticism of European metaethics. Then, when she arrives and tells the group that she is taking Intro to Philosophy, and that she is interested in it, respond by saying, Oh, Aristotle and “Soccer-tees” are pretty cool. Did you know Socrates committed suicide? That sucks. Watch her give you a peculiar look, and just keep grinning like a moron. Ask her where her class is and what time it starts. Let another guy save her from your clutches by offering to go over notes with her and giving her his phone number.

Ask your mutual friends about her. Tell them that you think that she is nice, when really you are mesmerized by her every word. Tell them that you are impressed by her clarity of thought, when your every thought is obscured by her. Mention her name in every subject that comes up: Oh really? Jessica saw the same movie. Wasn’t Jessica in your class too? Sure, it’s over there, just past Jessica’s car. Tell them that you named your new guitar “Jessica” after the lead singer of your favorite lesser-known indie band—that doesn’t even exist.

Be sure to sit by her best friend Marie in Art Appreciation class. Flirt with her a little bit so she will pay attention to you. Tell her that she is very sensitive to artistic subtleties. She will think that you are hanging on her every word. Ask about Jessica in casual conversations and carve the details she divulges into the surface of your heart. Run home and write down her favorite color, her horse’s name, and her favorite country music song in the addendum to your rhyming emotions on blank paper. Practice the four-chord progression that you composed for her, trying to use the color red, the name Jack, and words from “One More Ride” by John Michael Montgomery.

Tell Marie that you are writing a love song and forget to tell her that it’s not about her. Talk about how there’s this girl that you’re really stoked on, but you don’t know if she likes you back. When Marie smiles and says something about spending some extra time studying in the library over the weekend, tell her you will probably come in too. This will be a great time to ask her some more things about Jessica.

Think fondly on the only day you didn’t make a fool of yourself in front of Jessica. It was when you had a few sips of gin before school. Tell your friends that Mike Ness from Social Distortion drinks gin, y’know, when you see the Social Distortion patch on her backpack. Tell her that it has been ten years and a thousand tears since you’ve seen her. When she smiles and recognizes the lyric, think that you are getting somewhere with her after all. Ask her if she wants to hear you play “Ball and Chain” sometime? Laugh when she says that she doesn’t know that song and walks away.

Find yourself always needing study material from Marie when she is meeting up with Jessica. Nod too often when Jessica is talking, even if she is not talking to you. Tell her that she and Marie are together every time when you mean that they are together all the time. Drift off thinking Every time I see you, you look perfect. Decide to name the song “Every Time I See You.” As Marie says that she’ll see you in class, just say Yeah, ok, sounds good or I’ll be there, with a goofy wink and a nod.

Ask Marie if she is going to the end-of-the-year bonfire on Saturday. Tell her that she should come. When she says you’re the only person she would really know there, suggest that she bring a friend. Tell her that Jessica fits in pretty well with the group, so she has no excuse not to come. Offer to meet the two of them there and introduce them to the people you know, so they will not feel left out. Make sure you know someone who is interested in Marie to introduce her to; this way you will get a chance to sing Jessica your love song.

Friday night before the bonfire, tell the guys that you have to be home early. Tell them it has something to do with obligations to your mom, or having to clean up the garage, or something like that. It does not really matter. Go to your old wooden computer chair as soon as you get home. Promise yourself that you will approach Jessica tomorrow, and fumble through your sketchbook for your latest draft of “Every Time I See You.” When you finally find it, copy it down for her on a 3x5 card in your best script. Trash the first try because your script sucks and write the next one in glittery blue pen. Write in tall skinny block letters with fancy serifs that you saw on one of your favorite album covers. Stow it away in the pocket of your jacket that you are going to wear the next night.

When Marie calls, answer the phone and tell her Hey, I was just thinking about you. Hear her reply as if it were your inspiration on the other end of the phone. Practice your suave tone and smooth vocabulary for your true love with her. Before she hangs up, confirm: So you two will be there, right? Promise. Don’t stand me up now. It is settled. Just make it through the night. Do not die. Don’t do anything, just sleep, get up, check your jacket for your song, and then check again. Do not practice words in front of the mirror. Do not get too involved in what is on TV. Just do not worry about it. Make sure your poem is in the pocket where you left it.

Get to the beach early; help with the bonfire; move some wood; talk to the people who are there. Wait for Jessica and her friend to show up. Maybe walk down to the water and throw a shell or two into the surf, then get back to the picnic table closest to the beach entrance.

When Jessica gets there, meet eyes with her and go over and talk to her and Marie. Tell them It is so cool you decided to roll out. Introduce the two of them to a few people and then forget about your plan to keep Marie occupied. Ask Jessica if you can talk to her alone. Leave Marie by herself, letting her think that the two of you are talking about her. Take Jessica down to the waterfront and recite the first line of your song before you hand her the card. Be sure that it is the best way to show her how you feel, because you cannot remember any other words right now: Every time I see you . . . you can’t tell me that my eyes deceive me, and baby believe me . . .

Hear her say What are you doing? and keep going . . . that if I could only say . . . Find yourself, for some reason, having to explain: I’d really like to get to know you. Now that we have some time alone, I thought . . . She’ll say, I thought you liked Marie! What is this?!? Watch her fumble for words the way that you do. Anticipate a change of tone. Listen. You flirt with her all the time, and you even begged her to come tonight. Have no idea what she is talking about. Watch her go back to Marie and see her sneer at you. Watch Marie start to realize what is going on and see her visage change. Overhear the words Don’t worry; he’s just a dick anyway . . . Let’s go.

Get in your car and watch Jessica drive out of your life. Look at the image of the waves crashing into the rearview mirror. Feel your heart crashing and breaking like the surf against the rocks. Tell yourself She must have recognized the country rhythm, as you break the love song compilation, using the might of both hands. Think of the effort that you put into the research and development of your work of art. Let the memories and the countless hours of late night revisions infuriate you. Look through the windshield in the direction that she fled and cry You’ll never find anyone else that will sing to you in stupid twangy uptalk. I loved you. Say it as if the words would follow her all the way home and everywhere she would go in the future.

Go home. Work on the blues scales on your guitar while sitting on the old computer chair that used to be for writing poetry. Laugh. Think to yourself, What is her problem? God! They got all bitchy all of a sudden. Know that she missed the greatest love she could ever have imagined. Throw the latest Guitar magazine over your green sketchbook and tell yourself that you are going to invest in a Gibson Les Paul, rather than some stupid chick. Don’t write any more love songs. Feel her words knock your fingers off the right strings whenever you practice. Turn your amp up louder and louder to drown out the word dick! from your mind. Play the chords to “Forever Young” that your guitar teacher transcribed for you. As you read the music, substitute your own lyrics: You’re not the one, you’re not the one, in every way, and with you I’m done.

What's wrong with this picture?

2009-08-12T22:07:00.001-07:00

Lebron with Giselle on Vogue

Details magazine article "Gay or Asian?" (click on it to read the hilarious article)

Miley Cyrus and friends being super kawaii ^-^** hehehee (azn giggles)

My favorite JoBro ^.^** The talented singe--um, tambourine player, Joe Jonas!

Gwen Stefani with Harajuku girl entourage (who were contracted to follow her and not speak). Yes, appropriation Gwen!

Abercrombie & Fitch's "Two Wongs Can Make it White" shirt.

My personal favorite.

International Secret Agents 2009

2009-08-08T18:03:00.000-07:00

Produced by Wong Fu Productions and Far East Movement.
On Sept. 6 2009, the ISA concert featuring Asian American talents will take place for a second time! Features Kevjumba, Quest Crew, Lydia Paek, Passion, and more.

Aw, I would so go if I was down in LA.
$20 general admission.
More info at www.internationalsecretagents.com

Victor Louis Presents "One Night in Paris"

2009-08-06T05:22:00.000-07:00

(click to enlarge)

for more info visit:
www.victorlouis.com
www.sacramentofashionweek.com

Why I wrote the Asians in Porn Story.../Why It's Not Finished

2009-08-06T00:53:00.001-07:00

I've always been interested in how Asians are represented in the western media and I feel like it's all laid out on the table in pornography. Porn reveals the bare naked truth of how people perceive others (or wish to see others) and more importantly how we see our innermost selves. There are no limits in porn--it's main reason for being made and viewed is to turn people on, not to be polite. It reflects images that effect society's ideas of sexuality and power. Thus it's probably the one thing that shows what people are truly thinking but not necessarily talking about.

It's such a broad topic and it's a really important issue to me and to those who have helped me with my research so far. So, obviously, I wasn't satisfied with what I had written. I felt that the research I had done was not enough. I don't even know how many sociology, psychology, Asian American studies sources I would have had to read in order to write what I felt was a "legit" report on the issue. I didn't know how to tackle the subject or the issue in a way that made me feel like I was being completely fair either.

Hopefully it will be finished sometime in the future, when I feel like I've done all the research and interviews possible to write a fair, well-researched, and thoughtful story.

Anyways, I'm really happy with the positive responses I've received for my "Q&A with Jiz Lee" post! I'll be posting more on the topic in the future ;)

If you want to do your own research about Asian Americans in porn, I recommend looking up: Darrell Hamamoto, Jiz Lee, Rick Lee, Jeffrey Lei, Brandon Lee, and Mika Tan.

Sacramento Fashion Week 2009

2009-08-03T18:02:00.001-07:00

MAGNUM OPUS ENTERPRISES PRESENTS VICTOR LOUIS COUTURE COLLECTION AT SACRAMENTO FASHION WEEK

Sacramento, CA - August 3, 2009 - Magnum Opus Enterprises, the producers of Sacramento Fashion Week, will open the show with the latest Victor Louis Couture collection on September 17th 2009.

The main collection “Amour de la Robe”, which translates into “Love of the Dress”, is a 1930s Paris inspired collection by Victor Louis. “I wanted to create the beauty of the land in my designs and bring Paris to Sacramento for one magical evening.”

Louis has been inspired by design since early childhood and hopes to make women feel beautiful through his designs. His latest collection features feminine, sexy, and chic couture.

Sacramento Fashion Week extends opportunities to local fashion designers and also brings high fashion exposure to the northern California region. This year’s Sacramento Fashion Week runs from September 17th to September 19th. DAY ONE on Thursday September 17th will be held at the Elks Tower Ballroom on 11th and J Street in Sacramento. The doors open at 6 p.m. Show time is from 7-10 p.m.

Eight design students from the International Academy of Design and Technology will open the show with their mini collections. The guest designers are Brittanie Calilan, Elisa Lipnick, Kevin Roux, Melissa Kay, TLa Graves, Jaclyen Chideme, Monica Sanchez, and Veronica Salazar. The event also features music & dance entertainment by Athena Mackis and special performances by Opera singers Hilary Richardson and Suzzette Ledger.

DAY ONE will benefit a local charity for homeless children. For more information on the week’s events and to purchase specially priced multi day passes please visit the Sacramento Fashion Week website.

FOR ADVERTISING & PARTICIPATION PLEASE CONTACT:
Magnum Opus Enterprises
100 Enterprise Court
Galt, CA 95632
PH: 206.337.4224
E-mail: info@sacramentofashionweek.com
Website: www.sacramentofashionweek.com

FASHION BLOGS TO LOOK @

2009-08-02T16:35:00.000-07:00

in case you need some fashion blogspiration...

copenhagenstreetstyle.dk
it's simple and straight to the point--great photos and great outfits of people walking the streets of Copenhagen.

hel-looks.com
my first ever fashion blog before the sartorialist or copenhagenstreetstyle! it's not updated too often but it's the blog that popped my fashion blog cherry.

gofugyourself.typepad.com
this site kept me entertained since freshman year in college, and i really like the polls and faux convos they do. basically it shows the worst dressed (mostly ridiculous) celebrities. but even though it features "fug fashion", over time i just kind of liked all the clothes on the blog and admired all the celebrities for being gutsy enough to wear them!

thecherryblossomgirl.com
i'm not really sure why i still look at this site--she dresses kind of the same all the time. despite that, her pictures are super cute, and she travels a lot so it's a nice look into European fashion.

ilovemartine.blogspot.com
Martine is a hot filipina from LA with a huge range of cute/very fashionable outfits, plus an amazing camera. definitely a great blog with a bit more of a personal touch!

drapersonline.com
i know, i'm such a loyal intern even when i'm no longer working there! it's so weird how a couple of months ago i had no idea who these names and what these labels were. i got a great education over there! haha anyways this isn't really a blog, but Drapers is really on top of their shit and you just gotta know what's going on in European fashion since it will ultimately make its way to the US in 3 months.

lookbook.nu
this is also not a blog, but oh so addicting...if you want to see people try really hard to look really hot, coked out, or on the verge of suicide, look at this site!

**oops how could i forget!
thesartorialist.blogspot.com
obviously, the best fashion blog of all time. who doesn't want to look like one of the featured ladies from paris?!

anyways i hope you enjoy the fashion blogs i read!

We are the media

2009-08-02T02:05:00.000-07:00

These were young women who, we believe, had everything: money, beauty, fame, and opportunities, and they squandered such things in favor of drugs, drinking, and shitty ex-husbands. But does anyone really believe that any of these women wanted to let go of such things in order to become a tabloid joke? Does anyone really think that the decisions these women have made were based on rational thought patterns? Probably not. And yet we still insist upon kicking them when they're down, just in case the fall from their pedestal wasn't painful enough.

from Jezebel's Why do we celebrate when an actress falls apart?

revisiting europe

2009-07-28T23:23:00.000-07:00

get ready for lots of posts, because i'm in davis (and my internship doesn't start until friday). the boredom is only beginning...

twinsies

2009-07-27T19:07:00.000-07:00

can you find the difference?

everyone says that me and chynna look alike. i guess i can maybe see it, but...

oh helllll no do i look like this crazy bitch.

heheheheh jk. i like having a twin <3

Girl, you're fat.

2009-07-23T04:31:00.000-07:00

so i think i'm starting to really get my fill of SF, but i'm just never full! i think going there just for food is another way of getting my SF on. this friday i'm going to be visiting SF for my third time this week. :)

going clubbing with my sister.....weird. my sister dancing..oh my.

so we went clubbing at temple last week and it was fun despite the fact that my three middle toes on both feet are now numb. they really have no feeling. damn you adorably painful michael kors heels! the terrible things girls will do to their feet for a good night...

so incase anyone was interested, there's this terrible and fucked up article from Ask Men called "Top 10: Subtle Ways to Tell Her She's Getting Fat". i suggest reading what Jezebel has to say about how Ask Men wants boyfriends to "humiliate [their girlfriends] as often as possible". article.

can i just say that a boy should never tell a girl she's fat? she will most likely develop an eating disorder for a couple of weeks or months while humiliating and degrading herself. and um she also won't love you. and YOU'RE PROBABLY FAT OR UGLY YOURSELF bitch who wrote the article.

so hot

2009-07-21T20:08:00.000-07:00

what happens when we roll out of bed...

Summer Adventures with Chemily

2009-07-21T13:03:00.000-07:00

this weekend my beautiful baby besties (minus one) came to davis and sf! IT WAS A GOOOOOOOD WEEKEND! everyone (minus me) got numbers!!!!

Friday- Drive up to Davis, lots of not paying attention to freeway signs thus getting lost, crazy hotness, listening to Taylor Swift, Fujis, being really delirious.
Saturday- Meeting eew's cousin, Pier 39, sea lions :), clam chowder, Park Chow, clubbing, being driven in circles, being molested at the club, ending up at a dennys for no good reason, exhaustion.
Sunday- Union sq. shopping, Hotei :), Haight-Ashbury, cha cha cha!, sexy jonas brother twin trying to get chynna's digits, lots of sangria, being really buzzed off tapas all the way home, Degrassi.
Monday- Golden gate park photoshoot.

can't wait for next weekend!

interracial porn

2009-07-10T17:39:00.000-07:00

you know what I love more than anything...
race issues in porn!

I started reading Jezebel because Shameemah told me to and it's Gawker minus politics/NY gossip. They posted an article linking a Racialicious article on racism in porn. This made my day (really) because a blog I like was linked to another blog I like. I had a beyond eventful day.

from the article:

The term “interracial” seems to be reserved solely for sexual pairings that have a direct connection to American history’s open preoccupation with sexual race relations. Black men = threat, white women = sexual innocence. Why is there so little diversity in the interracial pairings themselves?

Another article from Black Sexxxology

model behavior pt. II

2009-07-04T06:31:00.000-07:00

Allow me to introduce...

HOT MESS, PHOTOGRAPHER AND MEDIA HO

MEIMEI, EEW, DARIA, AND NO PANTS EMILY

THE MOM, THANKSGIVING STORYTELLER, AND FUTURE MILF, POSSIBLE ALCOHOLIC

TENNIS TEAM CHEERLEADER, TIGHTS ENTHUSIAST

You're not good friends until you have done candid model-esque photos. Now let's take a look at my heels again!

Nordstrom rack Dolce Vitas HALF PRICE betch. hooray for shopping!

Styrofoam Cup Art

2009-06-29T22:30:00.001-07:00

Article. Not really my cup of tea, pun intended, but still cool. Sharpie+Styrofoam=Not very clean lines. I think I like it because it looks similar to my blog background.

He also draws on bananas and napkins.

model behavior

2009-06-26T04:26:00.000-07:00

dude why am i awake at 4 a.m.? i guess to upload pics of us being camera whores this summer.

this summer consists of a lot of tea, shopping, movie nights, txting, korean bbqing, cuddling with shamz while watching true blood, vampire loving, photoshoots, random adventures, waking up in the afternoon, sitting by the pool (but not actually going in), intense harry potter discussions, all the good stuff! i know. your life sucks compared to ours.

The Kid from "UP" is Asian!

2009-06-20T01:13:00.000-07:00

Funniest thing I read today: "We Filipinos will shamelessly claim anybody (Vanessa Hudgens FTW?), so I'm just gonna say Russell is Filipino. Even if the voice actor has a Japanese surname. We don't care, we really don't. Lou Diamond Philips, anybody? Tia Carrere? Thank you."- Ciscoman

I was so excited to see an Asian character in "UP", especially in something as big and as mainstream as a Disney Pixar film. This is a big deal to the Asian American community that is rarely represented in the media without stereotypical roles and actually has some character development/significance to the film. The character, Russell, is loveable if you like that fat kid who is really driven to do good things, you slowly learn more about him as the movie goes on (character development!), and he's one of the main side characters and not just some guy who randomly makes appearances in and out of the film.

I'm really late on this because I just saw the movie in 3D like...yesterday? I was in England so I postponed movie watching until I got back. I'm pretty sure the Asian American bloggers like Angry Asian Man were on top of this a loooong time ago when the movie first came out. But oh well I'm so happy about this so I wanted to post anyways!

One thing that's been asked is that Disney Pixar never made any official statement that Russell is Asian, which is weird considering that Disney jumps on any opportunity to say that they're breaking racial boundaries (like the new African American Princess movie). But how the hell is he not Asian?

1. The character is based on Pixar animator Peter Sohn (on the left), which would make Russell Korean American. It looks like they pretty much based Russell off of this guy except made him 10 years old. Interview with Peter Sohn.
2. That quick shot of Russell's mom towards the end of the film which made me LOL with happiness because that pretty much confirmed it to me.
3. Although it's unknown whether Pixar hired specifically an Asian actor, his voice actor, Jordan Nagai, is also Asian.
4. Although USA Today is mehhhh, USA Today identifies Russell as an "overeager Asian kid".
5. New York Magazine also identifies Russel as "a roly-poly Asian-American wilderness explorer".

If they make a Disneyland ride out of this, omg. I die. That would make Russell the first ethnic minority in a Disneyland ride outside of It's A Small World. Helllll yeah

Oh, and the next funny/funny because I'm sure it could be interpreted as racist and/or sexist and makes me uncomfortable thing I read about today was the comparison with "UP" to "Gran Torino". They emphasized the kids as Asian in USA Today (same article) because they both deal with grouchy old white men mentoring Asian adolescent males: "Besides, Hollywood already has proof that grouchy septuagenarians mentoring an Asian youngster can draw crowds: Clint Eastwood's Gran Torino." Okay I added "white" and "male" but whatever.

jimmy choo collab with H&M

2009-06-17T17:03:00.000-07:00

wtf?

article

goodbye London

2009-06-12T21:30:00.000-07:00

boat ride across the thames and dinner at the tavern just a few days before leaving London.

pic with the prof! :)

WE R CUTE

and now i'm here. in my house with my grandma....playing dress up and listening to bad music on the radio. MY LIFE. anyways i'm going to make a scrapbook because that's what you do when you come home for the summer and all your friends are about to leave to cooler places :T

at least there's a party on sat where i can dress up in heels and wear a cocktail dress ;) thank god! i don't think i can stand not wearing a dress for a whole week...it's too much pants+shirts. how do people wear pants all the time? i can't do it anymore.

new phrase for the summer '09 is "MY LIFE"

what i miss the most about europe

2009-06-11T16:54:00.000-07:00

is traveling.

U R A Fever

2009-06-10T18:02:00.001-07:00

totally obsessed in a weird way

Chloe

2009-06-04T18:14:00.000-07:00

is it wrong that i think these are cute? it reminds me of See by Chloe. is it See by Chloe?

xoxo gossip girl

2009-06-01T17:31:00.000-07:00

hey upper east siders

okay i've joined the junior high bandwagon of lip gloss and bitchyness, but whatever. this show completes me and my 21 year old fat ass is totally freakin serious. as soon as serena said "i killed someone" and that poprock music played, I WAS SOLD FOR LIFE. for LIFE.

anyways, this show is exactly like the O.C. except a million times better because 1. the boys are fine and 2. i'm chuck bass. i finished season 1 in a total of 2 days and a sleepless night. so sad that i did that, but i had a major headache and stayed in bed and this show cured all my pain with its hard-to-watch-chase-crawford moments and whiny brat jenny. i also really love looking at all the pretty clothes on the show, especially worn by Blair. i think my rachel bilson adoration might switch over cuz leighton meester (sp?) is soooooo fab on this show and she's not even a shitty actress considering that this show is on the CW.

A+ guilty pleasure

**UPDATE: after watching the second season, i'm gonna downgrade it to a B-/C+, and that's being nice.

cuties

2009-05-25T11:55:00.000-07:00

at Queens Arms with the girls last week :)

so paris was intense. me and michelle literally slept for 6 hours for the entire weekend. we would wake up early every day and get back after 5-6am. and we did a loooot of walking in flats. i was going delirious by sunday. i'll update later with pics and everything :)

sober nights in europe

2009-05-18T13:03:00.000-07:00

my internet is still going at 56kb/s slow! it's amazing. so i'm uploading like crazy! (while my roommate listens to Miley Cyrus and Demi Lofuckingvato.

this is late. i went to Munich and Salzburg a long ass time ago. or it felt like it. no it was actually two weekends ago? yeah i figure out what day it is by the weekends. it's all about the weekends. gah. only 2 weekends left!
so here is us in munich at night on a beer tour where we got an hour of unlimited beer and wine, and then the rest of the night going to the top 3 beer gardens in munich, then 2 free shots of jager (yager?). i was sober most of the night and just kind of sat around waiting to go back to sleep at the hostel. i had 0 sleep and hate beer so i was not in the right place, but it was still fun since the girls got to hang out.

okay does this guy really not look like...Ilmari from RIP SLYME? i kept saying he looked like mike shinoda from linkin park but i think i got confused because he looks like he could be ilmari's twin. weird. anyways this was from our beer crew in munich :) everyone <3'd him

random embarassing pic with the bartender cuz some old guy from germany at the bar kept telling us to take a pic with the bartender to 'remember which bar we're at' or something like that. pretty embarrassing.

here's the old man who made us take a pic with the bartender!

oh munich...

anyways so my friend danielle apparently never gets drunk but this bitch drank a shitload of wine and was acting like a crazy ho. she started knocking drinks down and making people spill drinks on themselves and she even took a guy's box of cigarettes and threw them into the street. good times.

Dublin

2009-05-17T18:07:00.000-07:00

my internet suddenly started WORKING. like it's at 56 kb/s slowness. this is pretty amazing so i'm uploading pics right now.

Dublin Time! (like "double time!")

first floor bar, second floor restaurant, basement club. in a church?
irish coffee= 4 shots= really not good and we don't like whiskey for life nowSO WORTH IT. oh my god. yes. YES!

also amazing. oh gosh.

okay i'm uploading on facebook at the same time and having an intense upload session it's almost a workoutt

yummy

dublin/tea time @kensington palace/panic attack

2009-05-17T17:11:00.000-07:00

hey slutbags

so i just looked at my google analytics, and some noface bitch from reston, virginia looks at my blog a lot. jk. why are you so awesome (for looking at my blog)? i don't know.
anyways i just got back from Dublin and it was uber-fun hanging out with michelle and pretty in the countryside. the best part was definitely the food. o m g. guinness beef stew, salmon, pork belly, chocolate cheese cake......o m g. best food i think i've had, like, ever. like you can't question me at all because it was that good. i'll post pics of Dublin later, but what I really want to talk about is tea.

tea time at Kensington Palace was toooooo freaking cute. i felt like a glass doll in a glass house and i couldn't really touch anything because everything was delicate and about to break into a thousand pieces.
so if i had to recommend things to do in London, one of my top ones would be having tea at Kensington Palace. i shared the Orangery tea set which came with these adorable sandwiches and a yummy cake. oh yeah there was also a flying spider on our plate which i kinda freaked out about but then we got a whole nother plate of sandwiches so it was allll good in the hood.

this is me and heldog.

heldog and sweetie Tiffanysharebear and eunice with that eunice smile
the loves of my freaking life Van and Michelle.

yea we cute.

anyways so today i kind of had a weird quarter life crisis thing/panic/stress that i blame on shameemah for starting ;). and so i went downstairs to find helen to freak out to and then we went to her room and talked and now i'm a lot better. it was weird. i think i have problems. like need a diary or therapist problems. yeah i need a diary.

PROBLEMS:
1) where am i living in the summer?
2) my mom keeps talking about grad school and i haven't told her i'm not planning on going
3) i have absolutely no motivation to graduate
4) i almost feel like i'd drop out of ucdavis which is just like in high school when i felt like dropping out.
5) i'm really passive
6) i'm also really inarticulate
7) i feel like that guy from catcher in the rye who is confused and being a smartmouth all the time and that's so lame and sad and pathetic

but now i'm thinking i'm in london for 3 more weeks and i'll deal with all this shit in my senior year. phew.

i'm broke guys

2009-05-13T18:39:00.000-07:00

cruisin' in barcelona and through this quarter.

so i remember why i made my facebook profile private and why i made my twitter private too.
BECAUSE PEOPLE STALK YOU.

gosh bad memories coming into mind.

anyways so i got an internship for Summer and Fall at UCD with the UWP's Prized Writing Magazine. if i get to design layouts, my life will be complete :) and i'm also going to help out with Sacramento Fashion Week 09 once i return and figure out which job to take. hopefulllly designing the layouts for the newsletter. or meeting male models. yum.

but something i really REALLY want is an internship at VIZ manga publishers. the only thing is, i want the shonen jump magazine intern job so badly that i don't know how to start the cover letter.

these are all unpaid Btw.

in the future i'm seriously just going to make money for rent, get enough food to survive, and then spend the rest on clothes, bags, and shoes. and accessories. and makeup. and wine. and yogurt. omg. fuck beyonce for having an apartment as a closet. and for that nice weave. i bet that weave can give shelter to some kids. ughhhhhhh

you could get the money
you could get the power
but keep your eyes on the final hour

wtf does this even mean? i can't be broke. i just can't.

Espana preview

2009-05-12T18:33:00.000-07:00

so this is late as hell because internet is slow in my dorm and shitake ain't uploading. but i will upload my pics one day. one day...

& my hair is getting so long that sometimes i look in the mirror and get disgusted. it's nasty. but i don't want to cut my own hair and weird out all my roommates and friends in london. so i'm gonna cut it alllllll off in the fall bitches. EXCITED. yes.
this girl is Michelle and she is my drinking buddy/travel mate. we're heading to Dublin this weekend, and then Paris and Milan next weekend (hopefully). Wooooooooooooooo THIS QUARTER IS SO AWESOME. poor Davis kids studying and being bored. not. best thing they got for weekends is costco and target and woodland HAHAHAHHA. i'm such a bitch. bye.

Justin Nozuka

2009-04-28T14:19:00.000-07:00

OK I don't know why I am making two posts in one day and not even about London or my trip to Spain. I'll do it soon though!

I've been listening to/youtubing Justin Nozuka on my ipod a lot. His song are mehh but his voice is on point! He sounds a lot like Ray LaMontagne with some Taylor Hanson high pitchiness in there. He plays guitar too but I don't know anything about guitar so maybe he's just strumming it. Whatever, his voice is freaking one in a million AND he's hapa!

You've probably heard his song "After Tonight" before. Justin Nozuka live is a lot better than on track so watch this live video instead of the music video:

And then watch his band cover "Ain't No Sunshine" because he gets totally over inspired Kanye/Chris Martin style and splooges all over the place. kidding......it's good in that uncomfortable way. so watch it.

pink>black>green

2009-04-23T06:50:00.000-07:00

Happy Earth Day! Celebrate by swallowing. Recycle, people, recycle!
-Michael K's tweet

it's good to be green, but eco-friendly clothes are so ugly and khaki looking.

btw i need to stop wearing black. i wear black everyday and am starting to look drab. i seriously wear outfits that are entirely black. even my roommate noticed. that's bad. it's sad thinking about all the spring colors i used to wear all the time, and how i switched to grey, white, and black. i should have brought COLORS. so sad. gonna go to primark sometime soon to add some OOMF to my dark outfits.

things i want:-pink maxi dress
-spring/summer-y day dresses (like the one above from New Look)
-denim jacket
-cute flip flops
-chunky flower necklaces
-new sunglasses
....i want it allllllllllllll! i just want to listen to beyonce's CD (yeah i know...i can't believe how good it is & i can't believe it grew on me!) and be in pink and flowery dresses and feel cute in the sun.

Edinburgh, Scotland

2009-04-20T18:29:00.000-07:00

So I have a really bad cough and feel light headed (LITERALLY. ugh) and my eyes feel really heavy. So I didn't go to work today :[ I ended up watching episodes of "30 Rock" and then watched "17 Again", and now I'm watching Zac Efron on SNL for a nice Zac Efron filled day. He's so beautiful. Not hot--BEAUTIFUL.

Anyways here's some pics of my weekend trip to Edinburgh, Scotland :]

kilts are EVERYWHERE.
my Scottish roommate Sara from the Smith clan.

train ride back. missed most of the scenery and fell asleep.

Culture shock: Loos and Litter bins

2009-04-17T15:20:00.000-07:00

So two things that kind of suck here: No restrooms ("loos") and no trashcans ("litter bins").

The thing about being American in London is that you get a lot of mean muggin goin on. I'm usually pretty stupid and don't notice it, but my friends will and then tell me about how it bothers them.

So finding a restroom (or "loo" as they say here) in London is impossible. It's not like in the US where there are restrooms everywhere for everyone to use. You can't just walk into a cafe or restaurant and use their restroom without having to buy something. If you do just use the 'loo', you get mad dawgd like really badly by the owners of the place and the customers too.

For example, some of ma girls needed to use the restroom, so we went to Cafe Nerro. I waited in the cafe, but stupid me, I was carrying around my grande hazelnut hot chocolate from starbucks (SO GOOD. I've converted. seriously.) and then a worker comes up to me and asks me "Are you drinking Starbucks in here?" Uh no shit? I'm carrying a starbucks cup! And then she asks me "Are you drinking Starbucks or Cafe Nerro?" really rudely and I answered "Starbucks. My friends are using the loo and I'm waiting for them." But I said this in a nice way though. I used my receptionist voice, and that's my nicest voice. Anyways, then she mean mugged me and walked away really pissed off. Was it because I said "loo"? Did she think I was mocking her? Because maybe I was. Bitch. And then some customers around the loo entrance started mean mugging my friends and telling them the loo was only for customers.

I actually thought this was really funny because whenever people are uptight or anal, I just think they're retarded. Anyways later on during the day I had to use the restroom too, and went into a different cafe. The guy working there was really nice but he struggled with deciding on whether or not he should let me use the restroom. He ended up letting me use the restroom. But still, I don't like needing to ask for permission to use a public restroom.

Also there are no trash cans (or "litter", as they say) here. Maybe one trash can every couple of blocks. Or when there's a pile of garbage bags sitting on the sidewalk, which I substitute for a trash can because there are no trash cans here. They say it's to "conserve"? Uh no. It's because they're lazy and don't want to have to take out trash.

This sucks because 1. I always have Starbucks with me, and 2. There's no place for me to throw away my cup when I'm finished with it so I'm walking around with an empty cup, and THEN 3. I can't use the fucking loo after drinking all of my fucking starbucks!

SO WHAT THE HELL HOW DOES STARBUCKS STAY IN BUSINESS? It's like London is working against Starbucks or something and I'm not okay with that. Btw, walking around with an empty cup of Starbucks while really needing to pee is the worst feeling ever. It's worse than walking around with a full cup of Starbucks while needing to pee. I don't know why. Needs some psychoanalysis.

The point is I need my Starbucks, and I need to be able to throw away my trash, and I need to be able to pee whenever I want to wherever I want to!

end of rant.

Oh, and Oxford and Edinburgh were awesoomeeeee I will post pics later. And I love London. xxoo.

Kensington Gardens & Hyde Park

2009-04-09T05:18:00.000-07:00

I'm about to do laundry, shower, eat some dinner by the Thames, look at some paintings at the National Theatre, and then see the play The Pitmen Painters (which I have to do a presentation on)!
But I thought I'd post some pics of me, katenasty, and hapahottie's little outing to the parks last weekend. It was pretty crowded with joggers and dogwalkers. I loved the Peter Pan statue ;) and I'm planning on taking a boat ride over the Serpentine later on.
When is the "honeymoon" period of my trip in London supposed to end?

london, aye

2009-04-06T16:42:00.000-07:00

17 pounds for a ride on the London Eye (big ferris wheel)!! That's a lot. Not sure if it's worth it.
But I have a weird fascination with ferris wheels.
I feel like I should photoshop Peter Pan flying past the clock tower.

<3

2009-04-05T17:14:00.001-07:00

Some of Shameemah's amazing photos of Spring Break :)

photo shoots in front of chynna's house, gnomes, tea station, shamzarazzi, yogurtland, dimsum, mall, BESTIES :)

cultured

2009-04-04T11:50:00.000-07:00

London Greater House (building where I work), near Camden.

The papers and mags > t.v.

Lots of Chinese people come to sell their shit.

Camden is 2cool4skewl.

i <3 the tube. do you see me?

my ankles hates me.

touristy

2009-04-01T23:57:00.000-07:00

some pics i took on the London walk tour :)

Garden walk in Kensington Gardens. Really cute path with flowers and birds.

Just like in "Finding Neverland" ;)

Asia!

William of Orange. Right next to the park!

Beautiful medieval houses...wish I could live here.

T.S. Eliot's house

Stole this from one of my roommates--Buckingham

can't believe i was able to upload these with my hamster wheel Internet. okay more to comeee

london love

2009-03-31T12:54:00.000-07:00

the reason why I haven't been updating is because my Internet here is soooooo slow. And I've been trying to upload pics but it's just too slow and doesn't upload :(

But here's some of what I've done:
-Toured London on bus and on foot.
-Saw where James Barrie lived!!!
-Went shopping in High St. Kensington and Oxford St. SO HAPPY.
-Went to Kensington Gardens and am planning on jogging there.
-Love Topshop! Bought some black flats with 3bows for 22 pounds. And will go again.
-Went to Piccadilly Circus where I went to a pub and then a club called Metra.
-Found where I'm working at--a big ass art deco building near Camden. and I'm going to be assisting the Fashion Editor. eeeeek
-I have an Oyster card which basically gets me around London for FREE.
-My bunkmate Sara is a sweetie who likes to shop :)
-I live in a quad--4 people sharing 1 bathroom. Not as bad as it sounds though. And 2/3 are doing fashion related things.
-Need to get a mobile asap.
-Just had a free meal at Wagamama with my schoolmates--an Americanized Japanese restaurant--for FREE.
-Just got lost walking back.
-Been going to orientations.

Interesting London things:
-"British work to live, Americans live to work"--stereotype/reality? I think this might be true.
-Gotta look right when crossing the street!
-Tip less.
-Shops close as early as 6p.m. and pubs close as early as freaking 11p.m. WTF?
-Don't eat/drink outside, in public, ever--it's not cute.
-It's not as cold as people say it is.
-The Brits love to use the heater. It's always so damn hot in shops.
-Don't show your stress.
-Gotta read the papers. People don't get the news through television here.
-Most people who drive a car in London are rich.
-Construction workers like to holla at ya
-Food is either expired, going to be expired in a few days, or won't expire for a month.
-I think the reason British guys are so hot is because they are usually dressed in blazers and well fitted trousers. Blazer=neat and mature, whereas T-shirt=lazy and messy.

Okay I wish I could upload pictures but I'm gonna have to wait a while. Argh. I'll post more later, plus my Asian Americans in porn thing too. Bye <3

I ain't sayin she a gold digger: AMBER ROSE

2009-03-19T20:57:00.000-07:00

how ironic is it that kanye says "I'd do anything for a blonde dyke" in "Stronger"?

Big (booty'd), Bald, and BEAUTIFUL!
How is she so beautiful? She has no hair!
& she makes kanye west look so boring in comparison.
Forget Lady GaGa, AMBER ROSE DOES IT RIGHT! I don't care if she doesn't sing. If she came out with an album, I'd buy.

LOVE HER <3

Q&A with Queer Porn Star Jiz Lee

2009-03-15T20:00:00.000-07:00

So my Asian Americans in Porn story is pretty much complete, just need to get a few OK's and I'll post it :) But here is a preview...

I found out about Jiz Lee through NoFauxxx.com, and right when I saw her my immediate reaction--besides "omg an androgynous Asian in porn?!"--was she looks super cool.

And I was totally right. I e-mailed her and told her about the article I was writing for my class, and she was very nice. I am so happy she agreed to answer my questions (which there were a lot of btw) because I was really curious about how she started her career and her thoughts on the portrayal of Asians in porn.

Here is the full Q&A (this may be better than my final story! Also, NSFW.):

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AMY: How old are you and how do you identify yourself (race, gender, sexual orientation)?
JIZ: I am currently 28 years old (1980's child - year of the Monkey). I identify as hapa, and as queer. My gender identity fluctuates between genderqueer/trans/dyke.

AMY: Why did you choose a career in pornography?

JIZ: Exhibitionism is erotic to me, and I enjoy a sense of power, validation, and excitement that comes from being watched. When I had moved to the Bay Area in the late 90's, I saw dyke porn for the first time and realized there was a place for me to contribute to the genre. The first thing I saw was SIR Productions' Hard Love/How to Fuck in High Heels which I caught in a movie theater with a bunch of other queers. Later on, I sought to find pornstars who were mixed-race/POC, and I came across a VHS copy of Sex: Flesh in Blood by transgender Asian American director Christopher Lee. It stars an all Asian cast including Jade-Blue Eclipse - an androgynous dyke with tattoos and punky hair. That was inspiring to me and helped add fuel to the fire of wanting to act in porn. I was so excited to see people like me on screen -- and little did I know that I could also be that person to excite others.

AMY: How did you get into the pornography industry? Who did you talk to and what was it like when you first started?

JIZ: It was a matter of being at the right place at the right time. I was curating a gallery exhibit and met up with a photographer I was interested in -- Shawn, who is now my lover going on 4 years. We met at her apartment and talked about how I was also interested in modeling for her, and she wrote down Shine Louise Houston's email address on a post-it. Shine was a friend of hers who was looking for models for her first film. Six months later, Shawn and I were co-stars in Pink & White Production's The Crash Pad in a scene which won "Hottest Dyke Sex Scene" from the Feminist Porn Awards. It was great working with Shine and I've been in all of her feature films since then. Today there are more opportunities for queers to do porn. Madison Young is directing videos in SF, NYC, and LA. NoFauxxx.com is releasing their first DVD. Trannywood Pictures is a great place for FtMs to get it on. Every month, Pink & White Productions shoots for it's website CrashPadSeries.com, which is a great opportunity for queers to try out porn. If you don't see yourself (your skin, your gender, your size, your sex style) out there, apply! I believe that we each have to 'be the change we want to see in the world'.

There wasn't much out there when I first started -- plus all the video companies and directors who had made the films that first excited me seemed to have vanish from the scene. So I was thrilled to work with Pink & White -- I sensed I was going to be a part of a new and diverse queer sexual revolution. To this day I still recieve emails and messages from people who have just now seen The Crash Pad and want to share with me how amazing it was for them to see it. I've been fortunate to have done about 14 films and have been on a number of websites in the five years following my first scene. I hope to inspire people like me to apply and to get out there. Together we can make one big queer mixed-race porno snowball effect in the industry.

AMY: Is there anything that has happened in your career that you did not expect?

JIZ: I didn't expect it to be considered a 'career'! Porn is something I've done 'on the side' -- my passion is in arts and technology. So being a 'porn star' was something that I didn't really identify as until about a year ago, when I realized that people were interested in what I had to say about my experiences. Recently I was invited by Belladonna to do a casting call with her, and I'm excited to see where this 'career' will take me -- so far it's been fantastic to see a community build around queer porn, here in SF, and online as well.

AMY: What have you learned about the porn industry and the obstacles that Asian Americans and Hapas face in porn?

JIZ: I have to start by saying that I am an outsider to 'mainstream' porn. And to be honest I am not interested in watching films with Asian women paired with white men. It's just not my thing, even though I have friends who date white men -- I love my friends and their partners, I just don't care to watch that kind of porn. Therefore I haven't seen a lot of it and because I'm not a straight "G/B" model I'm not sure very familiar with that area in the industry. I'd recommend talking to folks like Asia Carerra, Mika Tan, Kasuni (formerly Kasumi), Tera Patrick, and Roxy Jezel, Lucy Lee, and DragonLily.

I can however speak to queer porn, and say that there are not enough Asian Americans/Hapas applying. There are few obstacles -- and they're usually our own fears. For example, our fears of our families' disappointment, which many queers have already gone through just for being gay! Sometimes when we don't see ourselves represented, we think we're not wanted. However I've noticed in queer porn that that couldn't be further from the truth! I've had virtually no obstacles working in the industry. The worse thing that's ever happened is I was called 'Oriental' by a reviewer -- however there were also a handful of reviewers out there who actually contacted me and asked if 'Hapa' is the correct word they should use for me, and ask what pronouns I prefer. That's progress! It's a new world for a lot of mainstream people. Hapas are a new demographic and I'm proud to help the media learn new words to describe myself and my community.

AMY: How would you describe the portrayals of Asian Americans and Hapas in mainstream pornography?

JIZ: Again, I'm not well versed in mainstream (read 'straight') pornography. What I do know is that Mika Tan is trying to cast for her own video (Year of the Cock) that stars all Asian heterosexual cast -- that means straight Asian Male pornstars, which is almost unheard of in porn. I'll be interested to see that. A few years ago, Dr. Hamamoto created his own low budget porn Skin-to-Skin that was documented in the film Masters of the Pillow. (Ironically, the only man Dr. Hamamoto could find wasn't even Asian American -- he was Asian Canadian!) Jeffery Lei produced a mocu-mentary comedy Dick Ho: Asian Male Pornstar that poked fun at the absence of any straight Asian male porn actors.

As for Hapas in mainstream porn, I think there's a strange labeling that happens -- if the Hapa actress looks Asian, she's lumped into the Asian Porn category. (Prime example: http://www.gamelink.com/naked_truth.jhtml?id=hot_asians) If not, she's put into whatever other category someone deams that she belongs in -- ie: natural breasts, brunettes, anal, BBW, MILF, etc... it's an interesting system that I've never quite understood. It's flawed and what happens is Hapa folks are not counted. Neither are queers (notice the major categories are Straight and Gay (Men). So it renders us invisible. I think this is changing as more of us do porn. Categories expand or new ones are created. People's interests change.

There was a controversial article about interacial porn in AVN (Adult Video News) recently but they were only talking about black men/white women. Porn in America is such a curious reflection of race, class, sex... I wish more people were writing about it and am sad that many of our most vocal API activists are not more sex-positive. I think there's a big opportunity for Asian American Studies professors and students to tackle this topic. So I'm thrilled to have heard from you and am so happy to be interviewed!

AMY: What is it like being one of the few androgynous, Asian Hapas in porn? What has been the response from your viewers and fans?

JIZ: Fans have given so much love. And despite the fact that my social networking sites are listed under my own (pretty similar) name, they still manage to find me. I get tons of Myspace and Facebook messages from people letting me know how happy they are that I do what I do, how proud they are, and how they can get invovled. Some fans say they tell everyone about my work because they're so excited to see someone more like themselves represented in porn. Occasionally there are some fans who don't know the word "Hapa" so they ask me about it. When they find out what it means they are excited -- and some are even Hapa themselves but didn't know about the word. I also mention that the word was originally a Hawaiian slang, "Hapa Haole", and meant "half-white" though now it is mostly used by people who are part Asian and anything else. Being from Hawai`i it's important for me to keep Hawaiian culture/history going so people are aware.

AMY: There are many titles of porn that are based on race, such as "Bonzai Sluts", "Horientals" and "Dragon Lily". Asian porn star Mika Tan has said that the titles and themes of porn are simply to target audiences and are not racist. Do you agree/disagree that these titles do not perpetuate racism, and why?

JIZ: I agree with Mika that they target audiences, though I wouldn't agree that they are not racist. See the AVN Article (http://www.mydigitalpublication.com/publication/?i=12069&115&115&1&p=79) to compare the box covers about African American males, and what some directors/producers who are African American such as HJ from Justin Slayer Productions have to say about the titles. It's very similar and the same concepts can be applied to Asian American video titles.

Jade-Blue Eclipse was once quoted as saying that she didn't mind doing work that fetishized Asian American women for white males because it meant that there was a safe outlet for the mens' racial curiousities. Here's the quote: "Nor does she judge men who have a fetish for Asian women. She says she believes there's a difference between play and real life, that the world would be a better place if more people could express their sexual fantasies in a safe space where nobody gets hurt. "With sexuality and fantasies, I think whatever flies is whatever flies," she said." (http://www.sfweekly.com/2007-01-24/news/a-twisted-tale/2)

For me, I'd feel a lot better about racially charged box titles (and the content within) if there were more Asian American female directors adding their own work to the options out there, like Tera Patrick and Mika Tan. The best representation is self-representation for porn production. If we don't put our own images out there we allow others to create those images for us, and those images -- though legit -- are not always the most accurate.

AMY: I have talked to someone who works for C1R (Channel 1 Releasing), Chi Chi Larue's adult film company, who says that the reason why there are not many Asian males in gay porn is because there are not many that apply in the first place. From what you've seen in your career, do you feel that this is an accurate reason for the lack of male and queer Asians in porn?

JIZ: YES! I think that more Asians and Hapas need to step up and apply and they'll find they are definitely wanted. Kink.com has a gay Asian male TOP running BoundGods.com named Van Darkholme. (http://boundgods.com/site/model.jsp?modelId=15862). I have read Mika Tan blogging that she has been having a very hard time finding straight Asian male applicants for her new film. It seems that many people want to see Asian males in porn, however they don't want to apply themselves. I think that it takes a lot of courage to apply, and I would applaude them for taking that step.

AMY: Growing up, did the portrayals of Asians in porn affect your ideas about sex and sexual identity? How?

JIZ: I didn't really get a hold of porn until I was in my late teens, and it was always two white people - and always a man and a woman. It wasn't until a few years ago that I saw an "Asian" porn and by that time I had already come to my own sexual identity. I do remember seeing escort ads in newspapers that featured Asian women and stereotypical Asian brush-stroke style lettering offering massage, etc... But I saw those as being stereotypical, offensive, and aimed at tourists. I grew up in Hawai`i where there is a majority Asian/Hapa/Pacific Islander population and I actually found many positive role-models among my friends and adults, even including a transwoman I knew as a teen, who was an out and proud sex worker.

AMY: How has your career affected your relationships and dating life?

JIZ: Working in porn has been great for my dating life. I am open in my relationships and am currently very much in love with 2 amazing people, who I also have appeared in films with. I have been with Shawn (aka Syd Blakovich) for four years, and have been seeing Dallas (her stage name) for about a year now. I also date other folks from time to time, however I share my emotional attention with Shawn and Dallas. Shawn lives with her wife of nine years, and I live on my own (which I prefer). Dallas also lives alone. If you have more questions on what it's like to be in open relationships, I'll be glad to answer them. It's the best way for me to live a healthy and honest and loving life.

AMY: What is your favorite porno that you have starred in and why is it memorable?

JIZ: The Crash Pad is my favorite because things were very emotional between Shawn and I during that time. It was our first scene together and it was pretty intense. I love looking back at it like a scrapbook. However I have to say my favorite porn now is CHAMPION. Shawn and Dallas have a scene together which I think is SO hot! They are not lovers in real life, though I love watching them together on film because I know both of them so intimately; I know what it's like to touch and be touched by each of them so to see that on screen is an incredible turn-on.

AMY: What do you see yourself doing in 10 years?

JIZ: I will probably still be working in the fields of art and technology, though I may be working on other projects... and hopefully still doing some porn! There's also not enough older pornstars out there, so I am looking forward to filling that gap as well. In fact I'm already over the average age of mainstream pornstars who retire by age 25. Really though, I don't really plan ahead too far into the future -- I like to live each moment as it happens.

AMY: What are you currently working on or doing to help put out a positive image of Asian Americans and Hapas in porn?

JIZ: I hope my appearance in porn will inspire others to get involved -- either on screen or behind the camera -- to create their own sexual images. I want to give more interviews. I've also written about Asian Americans in pornography that have been published in online publications. I blog regularly on my website JizLee.com and work to promoting queer hapas in pornography as well as supporting sex-positive visual and performance artists, with an emphasis on API/Hapas, trans/genderqueer folks and people from marginalized communities. I aim to be vocal, to inspire and support others, and encourage sex-positivity in my local community and extended online networks.
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Picture of Lee from Lee's official site. To find out more about Jiz Lee, check out her official website JizLee.com which also contains her blog. To see her work check out CrashPadSeries and NoFauxxx. All NSFW.

Thanks again to Jiz for taking the time to answer my questions!

Asian Americans & Hapas REPRESENT!!!

Asian Americans in Porn story continues...

2009-03-12T16:41:00.000-07:00

I've got all my interviews now by some AWESOME Asian Americans/Hapas raising awareness about the gender and racial stereotyping of Asian Americans/Hapas in pornography. Everyone I've talked to has been amazing, and I wish I could include every thing they told me in the story.

Trying to figure out how I'm going to set the story up is a little...stressful and confusing. So I'm taking a little break by reading articles and watching videos online.

Haven't seen this in a while. For those of you who haven't seen it, Dr. Hamamoto was on The Daily Show in 2004 to talk about his porno "Skin on Skin". I love it when George Takei says "Young...wet...bitches".

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Cutie

2009-03-04T16:41:00.000-08:00

I got best presenter in Chinese today, and won a bag of lychee. I think it's because in my powerpoint, I used this picture of my sister:
The Wangs be cuties.

"Ta yuan lai shi yi ge bu ke ai de xiao hai, ke shi ta xian zai zhang de hen piao liang." --> "She was not a cute kid before, but now she grew up very pretty." See, it ain't that bad.

Damn all these beautiful girls

2009-02-21T23:56:00.000-08:00

There are a few celebrities that I adore for being so graceful, classy, flawless, and unbelievably beautiful. I don't even hate them for being so skinny and hot. I just want to stare at them all day. They are:

Gemma Ward... Don't even need to go into it. She's just beautiful.
Rachel Bilson... Always so pretty and looks good in anything! I always liked Summer better than Mischa Barton's character on the OC anyways (I can't even remember Mischa's name on the show).
Zhang Ziyi...I don't even know if she's a good actress or not, but I did see her in Rush Hour 2 and yeah I liked the movie a lot. 8th grade was good times. Anyways, she is FLAWLESS and I love how she wears the most random shit and pulls it off.
Alexa Chung... You would need to google her and find her in all her different outfits. She just reeks of fashion. And she's flawless all the time.

Besides these skinny bitches, I also like: Kate Winslet, Ashley Olson (I know she's a skinny troll, but she's still hott), and Eva Mendes.

I know I just posted pics of the skinniest girls possible...when really it's not healthy and is a negative image for young girls--ha! I did an article for my high school newspaper about the media's effect on body image. This is my favorite article I've written from high school, but I don't think many people cared too much about it. Reading it now, it's kinda congested. And why was the title so boring? Well, I'm posting it anyways!

Media's Effect on Body Image

You compare yourself to your classmates and hear the nasty things people say about one another based on appearance. After being put under pressure at school over the latest trends, you come home to where it is okay to be yourself. You sit on your comfy couch and turn on the TV, ready to lose yourself in your favorite show and bag of junk food. You easily chomp on potato chips and chug down the soda—until The O.C. is on, and Mischa Barton is walking around half naked without a single imperfection. Suddenly you are no longer safe in your own home, and the fat girl inside of you wants to die as Mischa mockingly flaunts her thinness at you.

We watch TV and movies, flip through magazines, or drive past a billboard and feel fine up to this point where we all of a sudden realize that according to the media, we don’t look okay. Teenage girls are pressured to look like society’s latest idealized image of beautiful women being thin, extremely curvy, and flawless.

And to add to this stress of being a teenage girl, being beautifully thin is not enough. It’s also about being unreasonably busty with the junk. Teens watch unbelievably curvy Victoria Secret models strut in lingerie commercials and hundreds of other ads showing off women with one-in-a-million bodies. When teenage girls find that they do not have all the assets of being hot like Angelina Jolie or Halle Berry, they turn to copying needs from the media that are within reach, like fashion or behavior. A few years ago, nobody knew what the word haute couture even meant or cared about what or who Paris Hilton was doing. Now teens are desperate to copy whatever they see in the media, thinking that it’s one step closer to living the attractive lifestyle.

What teens forget is that the “perfect” body is used in advertisements for the sole purpose of making a profit. By putting on display an unattainable image, teens are emotionally situated into the mass media’s steps to winning over a customer. Teens feel that by purchasing the advertised product, they too will increase their chances of having this “perfect” body, and will be happier.

We forget that these celebrities or media icons are made to look a certain stereotyped way. They are impersonally designed to fit a character for the public to see, produced by airbrush, personal trainers, or expensive procedures. Whenever you wonder “Why can’t I look like that?” remember that in order to look like that, you have to be painfully processed, whether physically or emotionally.

But not even some celebrities that look ridiculously gorgeous to us look okay in the media’s eye. If Britney Spears and Jessica Simpson, who are both below the average weight, are considered too fat, should society really trust the mass media’s opinion?

The problem is not only the media’s stereotyping on body image. The problem goes deeper into how a teenager’s behavior and attitude toward life can easily change in a negative way.

Haruki Murakami Speech

2009-02-21T01:23:00.000-08:00

If I could sit down with any author...it would have to be either Haruki Murakami or Lewis Carroll.

Shameemah sent me this story from Salon.com on Murakami's speech that he did in Israel after winning the J'lem literary prize. He defends Palestinians with this message--"Between a high, solid wall and an egg that breaks against it, I will always stand on the side of the egg." Read it here! Seriously, read it.

Excerpt from his speech:

"Each of us is, more or less, an egg. Each of us is a unique, irreplaceable soul enclosed in a fragile shell. This is true of me, and it is true of each of you. And each of us, to a greater or lesser degree, is confronting a high, solid wall. The wall has a name: it is "the System." The System is supposed to protect us, but sometimes it takes on a life of its own, and then it begins to kill us and cause us to kill others -- coldly, efficiently, systematically."

Reading this reminded me of how much I love Murakami for his novels and his dedication to being a true novelist--he's such a private person for the sake of his novels and the positive messages he wants to send out. If you haven't read The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle, you should. And read his short stories. The Second Bakery Attack is love.

Porn & Popcorn Event Feature

2009-02-20T16:10:00.000-08:00

The assignment: a feature on any event. This one was easy and interesting. I was dead tired that day and still managed to pay attention to the lecturer. And we didn't watch actual pornos, there was just lecture and slides.

I didn't list the progressive porn sites in the article because I didn't know if we're supposed to be advertising websites. But my professor said I should have included them (they are: MandyMorbid.com and NoFauxxx.com).

Btw this is like the third time porn has come up in one of my stories. My classmates probably think I'm only interested in writing about porn now.

Does Mainstream Pornography Endorse Sexual Assault?

Sex is reported to be the most frequently searched topic on the Internet, with over 70 million searches for porn per day.

On Tuesday, February 3, the Campus Violence Prevention Program presented “Porn and Popcorn,” an event for the bi-annual Generation Sex Week at UC Davis. Held in Young Hall from 7:30-9 p.m., more than twenty students attended CVPP’s peer educator Shauna Stratton’s lecture on the negative societal effects of mainstream pornography.

The average age at which a child first views porn is twelve years old. At such an impressionable age, many young viewers believe that what they are watching is “sexy.” Stratton pointed out that mainstream pornography’s issue is a serious lack of communication.

“A child or teenager is watching people begin to have sex, without understanding why or how it is happening,” says Stratton. “Instead of explaining why something is sexy, they just present it as ‘Here, this is what is sexy’.”

Students attending the event shared their stories about their first exposures to pornography in an open discussion. One student, who shall remain anonymous, shared that she was thirteen years old when she was first exposed to pornography. “I watched porn for the first time when my cousin and I were looking through my brother’s online history,” says a UCD student attending the event. “My cousin asked me if I was turned on by watching it. I knew that what I was seeing was supposed to be sexy, so I said ‘yes’.”

The event also covered the issue of violence in mainstream pornography. The well-known and highest budgeted pornographic film entitled “Pirates,” a parody of the Disney film “Pirates of the Caribbean,” was used as an example of how porn sexualizes violence, thus making viewers believe that sexual assault is “sexy.”

The film shows a woman being captured and tortured by male pirates. This act of physical violence quickly turns into sexual pleasure for the female character. “What this does is it sends viewers the message that if you keep touching someone, they will eventually like it,” says Stratton. “But in reality this is setting people up for sexual assault.”

Stratton also presented the problem of the sexualization of young girls. Media slides of porn video covers presented an ongoing “Daddy’s Girl” theme in mainstream pornography. Many of these titles included “It’s a Daddy Thing” or “Daddy’s Girl is a Bad Girl.” These reoccurring themes do not only sexualize young girls, but they endorse other issues such as incest.

A majority of porn sites and adult video stores are also segregated by race, class and gender. The CVPP conducted a research on the homophobia and racialism in mainstream pornography and noted that the gay pornography section was “far off in the corner” in the adult section of a video store.

Ethnic minority groups are normally presented in marginalized roles, and are rarely seen in mainstream pornography. On the cover of the film “Pirates” are four blonde women with blue eyes, and one brunette. The brunette’s role in the film is the “ethnic” character. It is also uncommon to find material geared towards transgender or female viewers on popular porn sites. Mainstream pornography is generally geared towards a male demographic, thus leaving other groups out of the pornographic realm.

Mainstream pornography affects our culture’s sexual image and identity as well. In order to prevent mainstream pornography from affecting our culture’s sexual image and identity, “Porn & Popcorn” offered attendees a list of progressive porn sites, featuring different classes, genders, and the queer community.

The images of violence in mainstream pornography endorse forms of sexual violence and permits sexual assault in our culture. The CVPP’s main focus during the event was to address these issues with mainstream pornography as a cultural offense.

There were over 86 reported sexual assaults on the UCD campus in 2007. It is reported that 10-20 people will witness a sexual assault before actively reporting or stopping it. Students are encouraged to take an active role in intervening with any form of sexual assault, whether it be signing a petition or joining the program.

The CVPP is a part of and is funded by the UC Davis police department. The program’s goal is to spread awareness about issues like rape and sexual violence and how these affect societal norms we live under today. The CVPP is also a support center that works to provide victims knowledge of all their options, as well as free STD testing. Their telephone number for support services or information is (530) 754-6389. Their volunteer program meetings are every Tuesday at their office building next to TAPS from 7:30-8:30 p.m.

blog reconstruction :)

2009-02-20T02:15:00.000-08:00

I am so freaking brillz. I relearned HTML in like....2 hours. Or I have no life. WHATEVER!

Since blogger doesn't let me just upload pre-made ones, I did the Banksy template myself! Hellyeahhhh. and I added a music playlist that's hidden, so I'm sorry if the autoplaying becomes bothersome. It shuffles, so random songs that I like will play. I also hid the ugly ads so my site can look cute.

My past html obsession came in handy.

MLK Story

2009-02-19T21:08:00.000-08:00

I duno what writing samples to send in for my internship application, so I'm posting some stories that I wrote in my journalism class on here. Also because Katelyn said to because I never have any interesting shit on my blog. I'm sorryyyy I ain't a ho fosho.

The assignment was: anything related to MLK. This story is underdeveloped and needs a lot more historical background. But I was on a deadline! Anyways, here it is.

Did MLK's "I Have A Dream" Speech Exclude Asian Americans?

In 1963, Martin Luther King Jr. declared “I have a dream” and in his speech he fought for racial equality and justice. Yet, while King fought for racial equality, many Asian Americans still felt left out of the speech.

“The Martin Luther King speech was an abstract thing for me,” says Anreeka Patel, a junior at UC Davis and Volunteer Coordinator at the Cross Cultural Center (CCC) who identifies herself as South Asian and Indian. “I always felt that [the speech] was African-American specific, and Asians, who are neither black nor white, were excluded.”

King’s speech paved the way for the Civil Rights Movement during the 1960s and 1970s. The Black Power Movement created an opportunity for the assembly of the Yellow Power Movement. Through the Third World Liberation Front (TWLB), Asian Americans were able to create the Asian American studies program in northern California universities as well as assert pride in their ethnic heritage.

However, after the movement Asian Americans became the model minority—“the representation of a racial minority group whose apparently successful ethnic assimilation was a result of the stoicism and political obedience,” according to David Palumbo-Liu, past director of the Asian American studies program, in his book Asian/American: Historical Crossings of a Racial Frontier. This set the tone for the continual liminal position of Asian Americans in the U.S. since the end of the Civil Rights Movement.

That is not the case any longer. With President Barack Obama’s recent inauguration, King’s vision of an America where one is not judged by the color of his skin, but by the content of his character is now a dream finally within reach for the Asian American community.

In comparison to the small turn-out rate of the national elections in 2006—a mere 21 percent, the lowest of any ethnic group—Asian Americans played a key role in solidifying President Obama’s success in the recent election. Unlike in the past presidential election, The CNN/ Gallup exit polls of over 16,000 showed that 63 percent of Asian Americans voted for President Obama. The Asian American Legal Defense and Education Fund (AALDEF) poll results showed that Asian American voters favored President Obama by a 3-1 margin.

In order to make the Asian American vote count, a political action organization called the 80-20 Initiative endorsed a swing bloc vote for Obama. Their official website states that Asian Americans are “grossly under-represented” in leadership positions, such as faculty and professionals in universities, the Cabinet, and other employment positions. Their mission is to have the Asian American community vote at least 80 percent for Obama, that way political parties will address the community’s interests.

The influence of the Asian American vote in the election is an accomplishment among the community. “The increase in voters reminds Asian Americans that their involvement is important and that our issues can finally be recognized in politics,” says Patel.

The CCC, which Patel works for, supports and advocates campus diversity as well as student activism on behalf of underrepresented and marginalized groups on campus. In order to encourage students to vote in the recent election, the center held the “Thinking Outside the Box” program on campus, which presented the issue of voting based on policy over color and age to students. The CCC will be integrating King’s birthday with the Black History Month program of events in February.

When asked about how she felt about the MLK speech after Obama’s inauguration, Patel says, “I’m so happy about how Obama was able to get so many Asians involved. I feel that the idea behind the Martin Luther King speech is finally on its way towards completion, and that now I'm included.”

Asian Americans now make up more than 5 percent of the U.S. population and are the fastest-growing minority population, after Latinos. The number and influence continues to grow.

hi cuties

2009-02-19T03:32:00.000-08:00

So I did mess up my html code and for some reason .xml's aren't uploading on blogger. I used to know how to do html but I guess I fucked up. I ended up resetting my blog. and I can't even add a cute template! s a d-ness.

I'm posting my journalism articles on here. I need to turn in 2-3 for my internship placement application, so if anyone is reading this, tell me which ones I should use please!

Oh and the only people who know about this blog are Katelyn, Katie, Shameemah, and I guess Travis cuz he's obsessed with me.